摘要
本創作論述源自於筆者成長過程中，經常被人問及是否有原住民或是荷蘭的血統，因為無法回答，對自己的家族史也產生疑惑，因此想去探尋自己的根。
在追溯源頭的過程中，經由母親的口述得知因為外婆的身世，被親生父母販賣、經歷了虐待與迫害，逃走之後再被領養。筆者與外婆外型相似，所以一直認為自己的血緣之謎來自於她，但這個溯本的線在外婆過世後斷了，家族樹就像消失了分枝，也因為家族有失智症的病史，讓家族的故事斷線消失，筆者以家譜的研究為導向，試圖拼湊出筆者的家庭樹，並留下家族記憶的痕跡。聽了許多母親過往的故事，筆者深受母親影響，母親與外婆間的愛恨糾葛，外婆對母親盡是滿滿的愛，也滿滿的束縛，筆者自己也育有一子一女，在育兒過程也發現自己與女兒間存在著一種難以言喻的關係，因此想研究母女之間存在的矛盾，藉此讓母親能經由了解而釋懷，筆者以西蒙波娃的著作《第二性》為研究參考，解釋複雜的母女關係。
因繼承了母親對纖維的愛好及巧手，筆者選擇對自己具有濃厚情感價值的刺繡及自家栽種的樹木為媒材進行創作。第一系列作品《叢重》，以具有家族回憶故事的植物為主，每種植物作品如同大樹的分枝，將分枝構築成屬於筆者自身故事的家庭樹叢。第二系列作品《蝶疊》，主要是探討母女關係，以蝴蝶與自然環境的關係，用刺繡作品來詮釋母女之間的糾葛與情感。
筆者透過創作表現與文獻的探討與研究，記錄下家族故事，用作品及論文重新構築家庭樹，留下記憶的痕跡，並以西蒙波娃的理論拆解母女關係後以創作來表現，讓筆者的母親對外婆因了解而釋懷。

關鍵字：家族記憶、母女關係、電腦刺繡

ABSTRACT
The inspiration and impetus for this artwork and thesis began when I was growing up, when I was regularly asked if I had any aboriginal or Dutch ancestors, a question which always left me dumbfounded.
Yet this recurring experience made me curious about my ancestry, and I began to inquire about my family history. I soon learned from my mother that her mother was sold into servitude by her parents; after being continually mistreated by her “owners,” she escaped and was adopted by another family. Since I resembled my maternal grandmother, I figured that she would be the best place to begin my investigation into my ancestry, but she died before I had made much progress, thereby severing an irreplaceable link with my origins. The difficulty of my task was compounded by the family history of dementia, but I was determined to continue probing into my roots, in the hopes of piecing together a genealogy, both to satisfy my own curiosity and that of my descendants.The many stories I heard from my mother have had a deep influence on my understanding of the family history. My mother’s relationship with her mother was quite complex and stormy. My maternal grandmother adored my mother, but was also overprotective and highly controlling. Having myself raised a son and a daughter, I discovered a type of special relationship with my daughter which is hard to put into words, and which at times manifests as contradiction and conflict. Thus I was motivated to delve into the nature of this relationship, with the expectation that doing so will bring increased understanding and reduced tension. My approach to investigating the complexities of the mother-daughter relationship has been deeply influenced by the work of the French existentialist Simone de Beauvoir, especially his 1949 book The Second Sex.
I inherited from my mother a fondness for and skill in textile work, especially embroidery, for which the trees grown by my family serve as the primary motif. The first piece in this embroidery series is titled Reclustered and features the plants which have played a prominent role in my family, the branches of which hold a part of my own story. The second piece, Stacked Butterflies, uses the relationship between a butterfly and the natural environment to interpret the intense and entangling nature of the mother-daughter relationship.
In this thesis I use a combination of art and text to record my family history, fashioning stories and memories into a kind of reconstructed family tree, as a way of deepening our understanding of the mother-daughter relationship.

Keywords: family memory; mother-daughter relationship; computerized embroidery

參考書目
中文書籍
1. 林國亮著。《家庭樹・生命樹》。台北市：雅歌出版社，2004。
2. 洪鍚徐著。《常州亂針繡》。南京市：江蘇鳳凰出版社。2018。
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6. 黃小黛著。《家族記憶》。新北市：遠足文化。2011。
7. 錢雪梅《刺繡藝術設計》。台北市：崧燁文化。2019。
8. 鐘文音，《昨日重現 物件和影像的家族史》。台北市：大田出版。2001。

翻譯書籍
1. Rebecca Rupp著。洪蘭譯。《記憶的祕密》。台北市：貓頭鷹文化。2013。
2. Rosemarie Tong。刁筱華譯。《女性主義思潮》。台北市：時報文化，2013。
3. Simone de Beauvoir著。邱瑞鑾譯。《第二性》。台北市：貓頭鷹出版社，2013。

論文
1. 于瑞珍。「零雨詩的歷史意象與家族記憶」。碩士論文。淡江大學。2012。
2. 王孝予。「穿越母女關係的迷霧：一段相信自己值得被愛與價值的敘述」。碩士論文。家庭研究與兒童發展學系家庭諮商碩士班。2017。
3. 方苡馨。「家的印記-在消逝與召喚之間」。碩士論文。國立高雄師範大學。2016。
4. 林玉婷。「從母女關係的回看，到自我的轉變」。碩士論文。玄奘大學。2016。
5. 張佩珍。「台灣當代女性文學中的母女關係探討」。碩士論文。私立南華大學。2000。
6. 曾惠凰。「消逝中的美好-情鎖家族記憶」。碩士論文。國立高雄師範大學。2014。
7. 黃嬿圩。「縫癒-纖維藝術創作」。碩士論文。國立台南藝術大學。2015。
8. 溫欣宜。「嬗遞-一位馬來西亞華裔母親的生命經驗與其家族記憶」。碩士論文。國立成功大學文學院。2014。
9. 潘佳筠。「模擬自然：電腦刺繡藝術創作的思維」。碩士論文。國立台南藝術大學。2013。
10. 酈苡庭。「看見-刺繡/纖維刺繡藝術創作」。碩士論文。國立台南藝術大學。2006。

期刊
1. 周彥玲。紙與線的交會。DPI。163。2012。頁54-57。
2. Joyce 。修補蝴蝶的女孩。戀物誌 。23期。2012。頁130
3. Joyce。針尖下的畫兒。戀物誌。33期。2013。頁105-107。
4. Megot。一針一線不輸一筆一畫。戀物誌。42期。2015。頁130-131。

參考網站
1. 伊日藝術FB粉絲專頁https://www.facebook.com/yiri.arts/8
http://ap6.pccu.edu.tw/Encyclopedia/index.asp0（2018/8/28檢索）

2.雷逸婷編。李明維與他的關係：參與的藝術過觀照、對話、贈與、書寫、飲食串起和世界的連結。
https://www.tfam.museum/Exhibition/Exhibition_page.aspx?id=523&ddlLang=zh-tw8(2018/8/14檢索)